Too good to be true.

I knew it was too good to be true. At least this time, it’s different. I’m happy but not at the same time. But like it was said, I need to stop expecting so much. Sometimes I wonder if it’s just me that’s fighting for this but again, it’s never one sided. I feel I’m too clingy but at the same time I feel that if i don’t reach out, he won’t either. Maybe I should just stop for now and see how it goes. I leave in 23 days and I ask myself, “why now all of a sudden? why do you make me happy now? right before I leave?” that’s harsh of you. But, one thing is for sure, at least I’ll have the memories and what lies ahead these 23 days.